So another year is almost over. While I’m not a big fan of end-of-the-year-posts (like everybody else) and believe you shouldn’t dwell on the past but look ahead I will do it anyway – like everybody else.

The past year has been eventful, at times more so than I anticipated and at the moment I pretty much feel like I’m stuck in a place I don’t get out of if I don’t consciously and actively deal with what happened so I can move on.
Because man is simple. We need rituals. This is mine.
The only problem is, writing a (pointless, let’s face it) review of the past year involves thinking.
Yeah, I know.

I have learnt a lot in 2011. I’d be lying if I said I’m thankful for each and every experience I’ve made, for every mistake I made (and I’ve made a lot). Some of them I really didn’t need and my mistakes? Well, most of them are simply too recent and I haven’t probed and poked them enough to gain valuable information. Yes, I do tend to over-analyse. I try not to but I often fail.
One thing I’m learning is to accept myself the way I am. But at least I am honest with myself. I am me. You are you. Either we accept each other the way we are or we each go our separate ways. I can’t and don’t want to change for anybody in the world, neither in the virtual realm nor in the real physical world.
What you see is what you get? Hmm.
I don’t leave my workshop without my pointy ears but am I your typical fae? I guess I’m not. I prefer Tolstoy over Tolkien. I love War and Peace, I could read it again and again but I didn’t make it through the Lord of the Rings. While the story itself is extremely intriguing the way it’s written bored me to death. But I totally enjoyed The Hobbit!
If you can accept a fae rocking out to Kyuss and brooding over Sartre, then what you see is what you get. Simple, yes?
I guess what I’m saying is this: I don’t want to apologise for who I am. Nobody should ever have to apologise for who they are.

And now I have to comment on a quote I read on Mera’s blog ( ) :

”Also – and few people want to admit this publicly – Second Life attracts ‘broken’ people. I don’t mean this as an insult in any way, as I am absolutely one of the broken ones. Second Life gives many of us very crucial things which are lacking in our own lives. For some, it’s the ability to socialize in ways that are difficult or impossible in real life.” (Marx Dudek)

For me, that totally hits the nail on the head.
Yes, I am “broken”. If broken means that I’ve been struggling with depression and “issues” since I was 16.
One of my bigger problems in the physical world is social anxiety. I have been diagnosed with it and I try to overcome it but sadly, it’s not as easy as it may sound.
Virtual worlds give me the chance to be who I really am – never mind the pointy ears, you know what I mean. Granted, I am not too social, I will never be the life of a virtual party when I’m not around friends or people I’ve known for a while. I’m awkward. I say inappropriate things.
I am a textbook example for the foot-in-mouth syndrome.
Luckily, I have found wonderful friends in virtual worlds, people who make it easier for me to simply be who I am. In virtual worlds I can do all the things that I can’t do in RL. I can attend parties without getting drunk. I can meet new people without the help of some substance or other that drown the anxiety for a while.
I have met the most amazing, most brilliant and creative people that I would never have known otherwise. I have also met other “broken” people. We all have our cross to bear. But it may become lighter if you can share it with someone.
For me, sharing isn’t always easy. That’s why I haven’t blogged for a while. I have been morose and depressed and sometimes bitter. But I reckon you’re clever enough to hit the “unfollow” button when I’m getting on your nerves.

Anyway, thank you to all my friends in the virtual realm. While 2011 has in some aspects been full of crap I am very thankful for my real friends.


Midsomer has a cafe again, it’s called “Lilla Cafe Hus” which is Swedish for Little Cafe House.

When I came to Midsomer for the first time there was a cute little cafe but somehow it vanished. I don’t recall why but a few weeks ago I decided we had to have a cafe again. So I took one of Mera’s small cabins and played with it. The good thing is, no matter how much I messed up it still says Mera is the creator. Heh.


The sign for it was painted by ArtWolf Eternal who also has a gallery on Midsomer.

The cafe is open 24/7. Right next to the fireplace is a truthball so bring your friends and have some fun! I plan on adding beanbags or cushions, hopefully in the very near future.



Trying to distract myself from a nasty UTI and something else, I worked a bit on Midsomer, did some terraforming and decorated the empty parcels.
Future renters can use the houses or replace them with their own but for now they’re there to give people an idea of the parcel size and what kinds of houses the sim feels good with.
Midsomer is a Scandinavian, light fantasy themed sim, an archipelago in the Magellan Sea. Waters will be sailable once we get physics (we’re close, be a bit more patient it’s worth it *nods*).
We also have a bar that you can use for your parties!
At the moment we have 4 empty parcels, all are 4096sqm and support 2812 prims. The price is 703 I’z per week or 2812 per month, terraforming is allowed and joining parcels is not a problem.

Midsomer rental

Midsomer rental 2

Midsomer rental 3

Midsomer rental 4

Midsomer rental 6

This parcel is a bit bigger, 5776 sqm with 3966 prims, 991 I’z per week. Stunning view over the sim is included and free of charge. ;D

Midsomer rental 5

Contact me inworld if you have questions :) Welcome to Midsomer! \o/

You’ve all read Mera has to give up Midsomer, either selling it or letting the grid gods take it back to wherever dead sims go. Now, Midsomer is my home, I love it and I can’t even imagine InWorldz without it so something had to be done. Mera and I have tried to talk Lady S. into taking over but of course she needed some time to think about it.

On Wednesday, Lady threw a party on her beautiful nude beach on Sweet Dreamz. Last time I danced in a bikini and I had planned on doing that again. But! As the hour grew later, the crowd was thinning and I kept thinking of Midsomer, I decided I had to do something to make it a little easier for Lady to decide for the sim. She had been pestering me about taking off the skimpy bikini and finally I gave in.

I stripped for Midsomer.

I wouldn’t do this for any other sim (okay, I would for Atlantis but it only takes a Horned One to  make me strip there *eyedart*). It was fun though. Naked angels dancing on the beach.

Angel Sandwich, Public Nude Beach @ Sweet Dreamz

nekkid angels

So, Lady is the new owner of Midsomer and I’m the manager!

A bit more than a year ago I created an account on os-grid, logged in once, tried to go places but it didn’t work (actually, I didn’t know how to, it’s a bit…different), logged out again and left it at that.

For a while now Mera has been pestering asking me to visit her place on os-grid so a few days ago I finally did it. This time I had landmarks and could TP, Mera took me to different places where I could get free things to de-ruth.

We wanted to check out Aurora grid but with my older version of Imprudence hypergrid jumping was not possible. So yesterday I downloaded the latest experimental release and logged in to os-grid again. Before we would try to get to Aurora grid, Mera showed me her private sim. A part of it was decorated by her daughter and I have to say I do like her style. I am a child at heart. Which is basically a good thing because once you lose contact to your inner child you are getting old.

I took pictures!

Leanna on os-grid. Nice to be a newbie again, duck walk included. Quack.

part of Mera's sim, decorated by her daughter

Mera's beach hut. I love that it's purple!

Mera's beach hut

Apart from the beach hut, Mera also has a slightly bigger house, lots of animals and stables.

Mera's house on os-grid

the stable

I felt right at home :D

A little later Fudge logged in and showed me her sim. Fudge is great at landscaping. If you haven’t already, you should visit her garden on Midsomer County in InWorldz.

beautifully landscaped sim

Look! Dolphins!

While exploring her sim, Fudge kindly informed me that to her I was a cloud. A pink cloud. Pink! Shock and horror. I can live with being a white cloud but pink? Of all colours?

Leanna being a pink (!) cloud, as seen by Fudge.

She sent me a folder called “cloud fix”, supposed to fix your avatar. After taking everything off and replacing my skin and shape with the cloud fix, I turned into a red…thing, probably Martian.

visitor from Mars

Mera and Fudge then sent me some freebie clothes, I slipped back into my human (?) skin and shape and got dressed. I thought. Fudge insisted I was naked and to Mera I was bottomless. She sent me a picture:

no comment

To myself, however, I looked perfectly normal. Dressed. The baldie in the pic is Kate. She likes to take off her hair to reduce lag. Or so she says. Maybe she just likes a cool breeze on her scalp.

See? I am dressed!

I don’t know what viewers the other girls were using but apparently they downloaded it from a rather naughty site. Busted!

Yes, I am still alive and well. And happy to be on wordpress after all, even though it just ate my entire post. But I’m persistent and write it again.

The last few weeks I’ve been too busy to update my blog. You don’t need to know that I have about 12 unfinished posts sitting in my drafts folder or that playing with prims is just a pathetic excuse for my poor writing skills and inability to find the right words. Hear me sigh.

However, I decided to show you one or two of Inworldz’ talented creators so prepare yourself for a massive wall of snapshots.

A few days ago I asked John Mahogany (Shenandoah Wildlife and Fisheries) to make an Indian elephant for Bradd’s sim Atlantis [ ]. Last night he sent me the finished animals, a grown Indian elephant and a baby elephant. They are so beautiful I couldn’t stop looking at them.

Here’s a tiger and like all of John’s animals it looks so real it almost scares you.

I am in awe of John’s talent.

There’s another shop that I keep raving about all the time – The Vintage Fairy Shop (or Shoppe? I’m bad with names *eyedart*). Anyway, Elwing Qendra is the talented creator. If you visit her shop you will feel as if you just stepped into a magical land where elves and fairies are real and you sit down to have a chat with the animals. To me, her creations are synonymous with harmony and the magic that is nature.

The next picture shows a part of my second parcel on Midsomer. I bought it a while ago when my former neighbour left because I needed a bigger garden to play with. And while I try to decide on the style it is a random collection of beautiful things, trees and flowers.

Next picture: Incantation Monoliths from the Vintage Fairy Shop (pe). They come in a set of four, one for each direction and with poses so you can summon the elements. The bubble you see on the snapshot is a fae dance bubble, also made by Elwing Qendra.

The next one is one of my favourite items, a “Wise Green Man” that shares its wisdom with you if you step close enough.

When a faelf is tired she needs to rest in style. The Vintage Fairy Shop(pe) has a mushroom with a fae sleep pose:

Sadly, a blog post can only do so much and I can’t show you the lovely sounds Miso Susanowa creates, all of them recorded by herself. Ocean sounds, bird songs, crickets chirping are what makes a virtual garden come alive. You should visit her Garden of Sound and experience her art, both visually and acoustically.

Here’s one of her singing flowers:

This is just a tiny part of all the amazing talent we have in InWorldz so there will be more posts like this.